Carepackage.
Welcome to the carepackageforyou journal. I’m elated to have you here and share my digital space with you. This journal entry is like an introduction for us to get acquainted as friends, even if we are just 2 passing strangers on the internet. I don’t believe in random “coincidences.” Even if you accidentally stumbled upon this page, know that we were meant to cross paths for a reason and maybe even a season.
It’s 5:30 pm on Sat 30th dec 2023. I’m sipping on my warm ceremonial cacao, struggling to find the right words to share with you. I want to say something profound, something heartfelt without thinking too much about how it will be felt. We do this chronic overthinking, us humans when we are trying to express ourselves and articulate our thoughts. We start thinking about how it will be perceived, instead of being true to who we actually are and what we really want to say. So with this well established, I’ll unmask any pretence and speak with heartfelt candour. For me personally, end of the year is always bittersweet. There’s always a bit of melancholy that comes in, between the festivities. A flashback of the year that has been- the heartbreaks, the disappointments, the setbacks. But also a sense of hope for what’s to come. A blank page. A clean slate. A fresh start.
Oscillating like a pendulum between the polarities of grief and faith. Amidst it all, still being part of merriment. Whether with loved ones or by yourself. But over the years I realised life is exactly this, we’re always swinging. The idea is to TRY to centre ourself through it all. And that is the purpose of my writing. To remind you of the joy of being. Whether warm and fuzzy or deep and heavy, it’s all valid, the thoughts and the feelings. The love for your own being, making space for your daydreaming. Because what else is there to this life if not hope, love and joy?
Now that the vulnerabilities are out of the way, allow me to introduce myself. My name is Ruchika and I’m an actual human being behind the screen. Not AI or a robot, but a living breathing person who is looking to connect with other humans as openly, honestly, intimately and respectfully as I can. The world I think needs more humanness, more kindness, depth and a whole lot of soul. In what’s turning into a digital rabbit whole. That’s why I write to express myself, to share my vulnerabilities, to spread more authenticity, to make you think and feel, to be seen and heard in my own humanness and hold space for you, in yours as well. This is my carepackageforyou.
With Warmth, Ruchika.
